It’s Been a While…

Hello all.  It’s been quite a while since I have posted any new content.  I am up tonight, so I thought, “What the hell?”

Anyway,  I am still working at the Mental Health Center. I have been there for over 3 years now. It’s my longest Non-Military job ever. I am currently part-time, but we will see if I can make it back to Full-Time soon!

I was working at Walmart as an overnight stocker for about 2 or 3 weeks, but I’m still in the multiple year process of recovering from all of my surgeries, and my body just could not handle it. Too bad. I really needed the money.

Shortly after I moved to Fort Wayne, I resigned as Chaplain at my former VFW Post, and I transferred to a local Fort Wayne Post. I am now the Junior Vice Commander at the post. Due to so many relocations recently, this is my third post. At my first post, I was Senior Vice Commander, at my second post I was Chaplain, and now, at my third post, I am Junior Vice Commander. I just thought that was interesting.

I am in a fairly new relationship. She is great. We are doing awesome! Unfortunately, she is currently living 1,100 miles away. I will soon be going down there again, for the second time in 10 weeks. It’s expensive, but it’s worth it. I am planning on moving there soon within the next 9-18 months, depending on my financial situation, and how soon I can get it turned around (Hence the Walmart job…more income plus ability to transfer when I am ready to relocate.)

I have started my own business. I am now an independent contractor for a company. It’s another Part-Time gig, at least for now, with opportunities to increase my work load as I gain experience. I am doing it 100% from home. I’m sure there will be more about that to come in the future. I don’t really have much else to say on the matter.

I got in another car accident. This time is was not my fault!! I was hit by another driver. It has taken forever to get it fixed. I am finally getting it fixed next week!!

That is all I have. I desperately need to take my medications, as I am several hours overdue. Y’all have a nice day or night now, whatever time of day you are reading this.


Update on my surgery

I saw the doctor this morning for my follow up visit. He initially wanted me to see him again in 6 weeks, and did not want me to go back to work until then. I couldn’t do that, because I would have lost my job because I have no protection under FMLA due to currently working part time. So, I got him to agree to let me come back now, with restrictions, and I see him again in a month. I got the sutures removed, and he said that everything looks really good. He was able to save the nerves and muscle tissue this time, so I already have full range of motion, and won’t need a brace like I did for my right foot. My supervisor also has approved me to come back. Now, I’m just waiting on the paperwork to get through HR so they can officially approve it. If all goes well, I will be working less hours for a few weeks while I work myself back to my normal schdule. I am planning on working Wednesday and Saturday next week, to get the ball rolling on getting back to work.

Taking My Breath Away

I hate having sleep apnea and COPD. I often fall asleep on the couch while watching tv. Many times when I do this, I will wake up gasping for air several times. I literally feel as if I’m going to die. And, I’m 33. Who the hell has COPD at the age of 33? I guess I shouldn’t have smoked 3 packs a day through most of my 20s. That is all. Have a wonderful day, and God bless. Actually, no pressure, so have the day you have.

Just some thoughts…

Life is hard. I am going through all kinds of stuff right now. Physically I’m not well and it’s beginning to take a toll on me mentally and emotionally. It is also causing my work performance to suffer. I just wish I could be done with all of these doctor appointments and tests.

I really want to go back to college, but I have no time or money for that. I am suffering from burn out at work. I either need a break for a while, or I need to change careers. As much as I really want to go back to college, I just don’t know if I have it in me to start that task.

Health Concerns, Fear and Being Overwhelmed

I want to start this off by saying one thing. Thinking about the process of getting to retirement makes me feel overwhelmed. The thought of working day in, day out, getting only weekends off if your lucky, and taking the very occasional vacation while working for decade upon decade…just thinking about it makes me cringe. That being said, I had a pretty good week at work.

On another note, I really need to start taking better care of myself. My health hasn’t exactly been the best lately. I have some major shit going on right now. One of my fears is that I will just die at any moment, or that I will go to bed one night and never wake up. I have been through a lot of testing lately, with a lot more to come. I am afraid that I will have to have a super-major surgery and then die on the operating table. I realized today that I have a lot to live for. The two most important things are actually people, those being Sharame and my mom. It would devastate both of them if anything should happen to me. Having those two wonderful ladies in my corner is reason enough that I must go on. Also, I want to have children. Maybe not my own, but I want to adopt. And I want to be there to see my children graduate from high school, maybe go to college or the military, get married and have children of there own. To be there for all of that, I need to make some major changes.

Back to American Hero Form

I need to lose about 100 pounds.  I have a membership at the YMCA, but I have never used it.  I think it’s time.  My plan is this…to work on cardio and weight lifting for the next 10 to 12 months.  Hopefully, by that time I will be in a lot better shape.  I envision myself as being built like a tank.  Then, next spring when it starts getting warmer, I am going to start playing tennis again, and maybe start riding my bicycle, while still working out, and lifting weights.  Also, I am going to stop eating so much meat.  I am going to eat meat at like 1 meal a day, and even then it will be a fairly small portion.  Hopefully, by doing all of this, it will help me slim down, and get in better shape.